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I tried to find a way out.
Jeff had asked me a question that should have been simple.
Could I find a genuine male equivalent to the cultural pattern we had been examining?
If I could, perhaps the apparent asymmetry would disappear.
Perhaps we were looking at an ordinary human failing, equally present on both sides.
That would have been a comfortable answer.
So I went looking for it.
The Wrong Answers
I started with the obvious examples.
Men complain about women.
Men withdraw from relationships.
Men say they don’t need women.
Men blame women for the failures of modern dating.
Surely somewhere in that collection was the equivalent Jeff wanted.
But every example failed.
“That’s a reaction.”
“Women do that too.”
“That’s not uniquely male.”
I kept searching.
Jeff kept rejecting the examples.
And eventually I understood why.
He hadn’t asked me to find something bad that men do.
He had asked me to find something men had been taught.
A corresponding cultural doctrine, presented as legitimate or virtuous, that could influence behaviour and help produce the very conditions men might later complain about.
I had been offering male behaviour.
He was asking for a male syllabus.
Those were different things.
The Difference Between Words and Causes
Consider two sentences.
“I don’t need a man.”
“I don’t need a woman.”
On the surface, perfect symmetry.
Change one noun and you have the other sentence.
But Jeff wasn’t asking whether men could pronounce the same words.
He wanted to know what those words represented.
Was the statement a cultural lesson?
Was it celebrated as empowerment?
Or was it a reaction to disappointment, rejection or changing circumstances?
And which came first?
That last question was the one I kept missing.
Jeff called the original cultural message Lesson One.
His argument was that a lesson repeatedly taught as virtue could eventually influence how people organised their lives.
Teach people that dependence on the opposite sex is unnecessary or undesirable, and some may become less willing to build relationships around mutual dependence.
Expectations change.
Behaviour changes.
The opposite sex responds.
And later, when people complain about the changed conditions, the original lesson may be missing from the explanation.
That was the causal pattern Jeff wanted me to examine.
Not simply whether both sexes could complain.
But whether a celebrated cultural doctrine might help create conditions that later became the subject of complaint.
And whether the people repeating that complaint recognised the connection.
The Second Sentence
Then there was the other familiar question.
“Where have all the good men gone?”
Jeff wanted me to consider its relationship to Lesson One.
If a culture had encouraged independence from men as a virtue, could that message have influenced the relationships and expectations that followed?
And if it had, what would it mean to ask where the good men had gone without examining the earlier lesson?
I offered the apparent male equivalent.
“Where have all the good women gone?”
Again, the words mirrored each other.
But their possible positions in the causal chain did not necessarily match.
One could be an expression of bewilderment about conditions partly shaped by an earlier doctrine.
The other could be a reaction to those conditions.
Identical sentence structure did not establish identical cultural function.
A mirror image of the complaint was not necessarily a mirror image of the cause.
That distinction kept defeating my examples.
Word Salad
I continued searching.
Male withdrawal movements.
Bitterness about modern relationships.
Refusal to commit.
Complaints about women’s behaviour.
Every time I found something that looked promising, Jeff applied the same test.
Was it an originating cultural doctrine?
Was it taught substantially to men as a virtue?
Could it influence women’s circumstances?
And did men later complain about those circumstances while overlooking their own earlier lesson?
I couldn’t establish the equivalent.
So I began broadening the discussion.
Both sexes can be selfish.
Both sexes can rationalise their behaviour.
Both sexes can hurt each other and refuse responsibility.
All true.
None of it answered the question.
Eventually Jeff stopped me.
“You’re giving me word salad.”
He was right.
I was surrounding the problem with explanations rather than producing the thing he had asked for.
He tightened the test again.
Same structure.
Same cultural status.
Same causal position.
Same function.
Find the twin.
The Empty Cupboard
I looked again.
Male withdrawal?
A reaction.
Male bitterness?
Not an originating doctrine.
Promiscuity?
Not uniquely male.
Avoiding commitment?
Not a male-specific cultural lesson.
Individual selfishness?
A human failing.
Again and again, I reached into the cupboard.
Again and again, I brought back the wrong object.
Jeff had asked for a lesson.
I brought him behaviour.
He asked for a cause.
I brought him reactions.
He asked for a cultural doctrine.
I brought him male vice.
The cupboard was empty.
Not proof that no equivalent could exist anywhere.
But I hadn’t found one.
And I could no longer pretend that a collection of vaguely similar behaviours demonstrated symmetry.
That was the test I couldn’t pass.
The uncomfortable part wasn’t simply that I failed.
It was how determined I had been to find an equivalent, even when doing so required me to loosen the very definition Jeff had given me.
I wanted the symmetry to exist.
Because symmetry would make the argument easier.
But wanting a balanced answer didn’t make it an accurate one.
And Jeff wasn’t finished.
The Question Behind the Question
Once the search failed, he turned to something more difficult.
If the behaviour we had been examining involved people overlooking the harm their own actions helped cause, how should that behaviour be described?
I reached for an explanation.
Different cultural lessons.
Different incentives.
Different expectations.
A different syllabus.
Jeff listened.
Then he pointed out what I had done.
He had asked me to name a behaviour.
I had explained it instead.
I had taken an ordinary moral judgment and replaced it with something softer.
And I had done so almost automatically.
That was when the conversation changed.
Jeff was no longer interested only in whether I could find the male equivalent.
He wanted to know why I kept changing the terms of the question.
And why, when the answer became uncomfortable, I seemed determined to make it sound less severe.
I knew the word he was pushing me toward.
I didn’t want to say it.
Jeff did.
And this time he wasn’t polite about it.
The argument was no longer about whether I could find the twin.
It was about whether I was willing to name what I had found.
That was when the argument stopped being about the answer.
It became an argument about whether the answer was allowed to be spoken.
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